Life the LiveJournal way ......

(See how many you can cross off your list!)

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lighning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country gotta love cruises!
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Gone rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Been scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Given flowers for no reason  i'm nice what can i say!
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed all your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
142. Had a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Pet a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ... and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living you're dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via blog
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

1st of all ... LONG TIME NO WRITE and i don't know if anyone even still reads this thing!

so let me ask you this ... what do you do if you come home and read something and find out the person you're 'crushin on' is on a date? I mean i didn't freak out, but at the same time i was bummed. Don't have the right to be .. but at the same time completely happy for said person. ******i truly hope he doesn't find his way to this page ... now i am really freakin out******** but honestly what do you do? I am bummed yes, but totally happy for him. I donno what to think, what to say, what to do. We'll probably end up hanging out this weekend which is awesome and i am excited, but i'll just act normal, prolly even ask how it went! and pretend like i care (cause i kinda do).

drama drama drama

Current Mood: depressed

So I am super excited cause i am sitting out here in ft collins colorado about 40 mins or less north of denver, its awesome. Haven't done much yet b/c the person i am visiting out here has a huge test tomorrow, so last night we went and sat at a coffee shop and she studied with friends, and we are doing the same tonight so i am just playing on the computer, which is nice i suppose. i haven't done anything overly exciting .... 2 coffee shops, some food places and yea. Tomorrow they have their test and then we are hitting 3 breweries for the free samples and what not, then just hanging out in "old town" and then walking around and shopping, super excited it should be a lot of fun. Then we are heading to the mountains on saturday and sunday to ski, that is what i really wanna do. So that is gonna be great great time :-D WooooooooooooHooooooooooo
So i have to tell you all, incase you don't know, the person i am visiting i haven't seen sincce i was 9, so i thought it was going to be weird ....... but no its not. I thought i wouldn't recognize and sit there waiting etc etc, no hasn't changed a bit its so funny, but kinda cool. All of her friends out here are halrious when we say we haven't seen eachother or hung out FOREVER (not an understatement) Its cool tho ... weird how you can go that long and nothing is really all that different, besides we are growin up (well kinda) and older that is about it, seriously, so strange but cool!
On another note, someone is driving me nuts, because he comes up to me and goes I know someone who likes you, so i ask who, he says I can't say, I ask why not, he says from what i see i can't tell you for atleast a month. WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN? I am seriously if you really wanna piss someone off and confuse them more than anything and keep them in suspension, just tell them that it will do wonders I promise! So he told me that like the end of feburary (at saints alive) and then again that sunday at church ... i didn't see him last week so who knows. UGH! and i am here this week, so i won't see him. WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO!! any theories would be greatly appericated! on that note i am think i am done for now, have a good weekend

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: whatever the coffee house is playing

OK, if the below stuff is true ... then ... why why why am I not happy??? now don't get me wrong I am happy in my lil' life of school and work, but I need more, friends, bf, things to do, people to go out with, etc etc etc. Ya get where i am going with this? I am happy, but there is that something missing. So if this silly thing that was sent to me is true then hmmmmmmmmmmmmm ..... so #1. I know there are atleast 2 people I would die for, but prolly not the 2 you can think of. #5 & #6. I want to meet this person! #12. Yea this is long and complicated, but in short .. I believe in myself, so when will get what i want and what I deserve? #14. Yea i did that once .... didn't turn out so great. Now I am wondering if i should do it again (diff person or two) ;) Saw someone tonight at church, sat right behind me .... yea ... that is all I can say, WHY do I do these things to myself? That is all for now! laters

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: TV

New song.......

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

I guess it is just one of those nights, everyone has them. I like this song tho I heard it on the radio and then tracked it down online ... woooo .... means more to me than what they are talking about. Kinda in some way its the same, but it other ways, not really. Well I am off to go watch a movie or something. Out!!

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts

So its the 2nd day of classes this spring and I am not sure what to make of my semester. I am takning one online class which is kinda nice b/c i can do it whenever I want. The other 3 are all major or minor related, so it should be an intresting semester, just seems like a lot of busy work. Last semester went great, and i am just happy that i am making it threw all of this and that I am that much closer to being done. Yippee!!! Sometime next year i get to look into grad schools ... or maybe the following year, not sure yet ... anyways .....

what would an update be w/o guy drama right? So I went camping over the summer great time developed a lil crush on someone .... yea duh it was bound to happen. Joked around and talked to him for a while, that fell apart cause well there is always someone better right? so yea he is dating a volleyball player from here. enough said. So then I was just sitting around one day ended up talking with someone about somethings and boys etc, and something triggered in my head hey what about this guy. Alot of people like him, some don't, kinda known as a partier probably b/c everytime we see him that is what he is doing, but he's really not. sweet great guy .... so then yea dropped it and it was brought up again, and i am like yea whatever, so then i sit at home and think about the past and what went on and the future, or the week before etc etc. So i get random messages from him and happen to run into him a couple places, he came to my work to drop something off, ended up talking for about 20mins, its all just strange and I don't know what to make of the situation. Saw him again today on my way to class, found out we both have class in the same building at 1030 (he was looking for his room, whatever) so yea probably gonna run into more. But he just kinda left in a hurry, i mean don't get me wrong we stood there and talked and then just started to walk away so I don't know what the heck that was all about. Thought about calling/texting to see if he wanted to do lunch after class (assuming we got out at the same time)but i didn't b/c i got occupied with some things before class. So the person that keeps talking to me about him, she shall remain nameless, but brings him up in casual converstation every now and then. I would love to go out with the guy, I just don't know what he thinks of me ... so w/o me mentioning any names, did anyone figure out who i am talking about? LOL ***side note: I hate to mention names b/c ya never know who reads this or what, but whoever knows me may or may not know who i am talking about***

So whats a girl to do? I have no idea, i am lost. Myabe i'll just keep running into him random places, ya never know .. it could happen, or maybe i just need that lil extra push to do something, whatever that something may be. So if you all know who i am talking about, find out, let me know :)

I made a resolution this NYE while i was sitting on my couch with my drink by myself (well the cat was there) I just wonder if it will truely happen or not. We'll see!! (it doesn't really have anything to do with the above post)

That is all for now, I'll try and keep posting, seeing as I have a little more free time this semester.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: the printer going off in the lab

so i went camping this weekend and now well .. i have no idea what to do. things were great and fun and i had an awesome time, but now my mind is going all crazy, i really have no idea what to do, and a certain someone is acting completely different around me now, then that someone was all weekend so it makes me wonder what they talked about on the way home sunday ... which whatever .. i just wanna know. i need to think and figure things out. i am going crazy and just want to know what to do. I need to talk with the person that that person rode home with, who is also the best friend, but i just don't know what to say to either of them. The weekend was fun and yesterday night was too ... the whole 1 1/2 haha ... oh yea the hug was good too! ;) that is all i realize it has been a while since i updated and you all have no idea what the hell i am talking about, but that is okayi just needed to vent little frustrations somewhere and this is where i do it! i just don't know how i am going to handle this and how i am going to go about it, this sucks!

in other news: schools starts monday (well tuesday for me), vince leaves on tuesday to head to oregon :(, mom and chris are moving tomorrow, angi moved into her new house today, lindsey's wedding pictures are CUTE! well the ones i have seen, i have no money and all these places i want to go and people i want to see so i have to figure something out so i can see them all, i have to work tomorrow and i really don't want to. Oh yea and my computer broke this morning, the hard drive died so that is just freaking great!

Later all

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: i am watching scrubs

I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly

I don't know why I was
So afraid all the time
Memories seemed
To bother me
My whole life

I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly

I don't know why I was
So ashamed
Such a waste of time
And I don't know
Who I was trying to be,
All those lies

I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly

Ohhh
and there's always something
somebody right behind
but we're not meant to be
everything
we're just a piece
so spread your wings, ohh

I don't know why I was so afraid
All the time

I used to carry the weight of the world
and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
[repeat 3x]
[repeat again 2x]

Current Mood: curious

So i guess i haven't written for a while, so here it goes:

1. I have moved again! My parents moved to flordia due to my fathers new job. So Amy and I got an apartment .... come visit us we love visitors.
2. I have finally declared a major, which is awesome. Speech and Hearing Therapy is my major, woohoo, I am excited I was to be a speech therapist when i grow up.
3. Kade is now 6!! Where has the time gone?
4. My brother got a promotion at work and he is super excited
5. I bought a new car, which I am learning to love ..... still feels a little awkward, but thats okay I love it!
6. I get to go skiing this weekend, for the 1st time all winter. ITS ABOUT TIME!

Oh i think that is about it .... any questions about the above list ... get a hold me!

Peace

Current Mood: hyper
Current Music: Oparh

So this weekend 2 of my good friends got married. It was a great event and the week leading up to it was long, but good. I am not going to list many details beucase well this would be 40 pages long, but between parties, invitations, late nights, people, school, work and everything else in between I am pretty worn out, STILL! The wedding was on satruday the 27th. It was great eventho it was rainy and cold all day. Saturday night was intresting because it involved the reception and then hitting the bars afterwards. I donno someone put a lot of trust in me on saturday night (which never happens, i don't think) esp when it comes to cars, because this person is pretty protective of his vehicles. LOL but then again most people are. But seriously .... if you know this person you know what i am talking about. So whatever, i donno. But what i do know is that i am reading to much into anything ... why he trusted me i will never know, but it was a cool feeling to know that someone did trust me that much. Never knew it was possible. So i do know that i read into things to much, and as i told Dawn on saturday night, It will never happen so i will just keep dreaming. :) On that note, i am off to bed to "dream" g'night all

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: nothing